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Faith.

Just the word alone has such beauty to it. Then you read it's meaning.

faith 
 /feɪθ/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [feyth] Show IPA
–noun
1. confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another's ability.
2. belief that is not based on proof: He had faith that the hypothesis would be substantiated by fact.
3. belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion: the firm faith of the Pilgrims.
4. belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.: to be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty.
5. a system of religious belief: the Christian faith; the Jewish faith.
6. the obligation of loyalty or fidelity to a person, promise, engagement, etc.: Failure to appear would be breaking faith.
7. the observance of this obligation; fidelity to one's promise, oath, allegiance, etc.: He was the only one who proved his faith during our recent troubles.
8. Christian Theology. the trust in God and in His promises as made through Christ and the Scriptures by which humans are justified or saved.

I have such a thing for words. Their meaning, and how they are used. Faith is a great word. It is a great thing! It is something that I have that I can honestly say, I would never want to live without. So you can imagine how hard it has been to have several trials come my way in the last several years that have caused it to wain more then ever in my life.

As you read the definition, however, it is a very good reminder of what we need to recall. (What I need to recall) Believing does not always have proof to back it up. So often God is at work, hard work, all around us and we simply cannot see yet what He is fashioning in our behalf. But rest assured He is never on vacation. He doesn't sleep, and His eyes are constantly on us. Now when we are in the throws of sin, that statement might make us squirm a bit. But as a single mommy, raising 2 very bright and beautiful little girls that is a suffocating comfort.

I want to be known as a person of great faith. I desire to have it be infectious in all that I do, and all that I am called to go through.

The most powerful and lovely prayer I had ever heard in my life was one that I read just days after my Macsen's exodus home. I may have mentioned before in past posts, I can't remember. I spoke of it at his memorial. But I know that in God's love for me, I am sure the timing in which I came upon it was His ordaining indeed. He loves me so much. (Sometimes I just don't get that!) The prayer is what keeps me going on blue days. Blue days that I would rather just lie in bed and stare at my baby. This picture is a photo of the actual wall in my bedroom that I wake up to everyday. I co-slept with all of my babies. It was such a treasure to wake up to little faces, sweet baby breath and cute coos.......but I didn't get to do that with my Macsen. So this was the next best thing. At least I can wake up looking at him, right?! Anyhow......here is God's prayer to me.....to you......

God- I so wanted to hold him/her in my arms

and tell him/her all about you.

But, since that wasn't in your plans for us,

I pray you hold him/her in your arms

and tell him/her all about me!

I want God to tell Macsen how very good mommy is! How FAITHFUL, true, and devoted to Him she is being. I pray that for all of us. Remember what we are told in scripture:

In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

~1 Peter 1:6-7

Faith.....I just love that word.