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Today I went to my mailbox, on a very typical and wet day in the Pacific Northwest. In God's perfect timing my will arrived for me to proof. Perfect because, oddly, it lifted me up.

It reads as follows:



LAST WILL AND TESTAMENT OF MEGAN GEBHARDT

Know all men by these Presents, that I, MEGAN REBECCA GEBHARDT, a citizen of the United States of America and a resident of Multnomah County, Oregon, being of sound and disposing mind and not acting under duress, menace, fraud or undue influence of any person whomsoever, and realizing, " it is the lot of men once to die and then cometh judgement," trusting that God has made me His own child and has kept me in personal fellowship with Himself so that, purely by His grace I can say, " the course that (God) set I have finished, and i have kept the faith. the future holds for me the crown of righteousness which god, the righteous judge will give to me in that day....and not, of course, only to me but to all of those that have loved what they have seen in Him." (II Timothy 4:7-8)


(There is a great deal of Charlie Brown's teacher that follows.....WAh, wah. Wah. wha.....wha, wha.)


Then....


1.2 DESCENDANTS. My presently living children are:

MIA BROOKE GEBHARDT, born October 13th, 2002
MAIZY BLY GEBHARDT, born June 26th, 2005

References to "my children" shall include any child later born to or adopted by me.

(This is such a statement of HOPE. My girls often ask me if we can pray for another baby. And after I get past the thought- God is done with imaculate conceptions....I remember, God is God. He has so much new and exciting things planned for us. Adopting, whatever?! HERE IS WHERE I GOT ROCKED TO MY CORE AND FELL ON MY FACE BEFORE A MOST DESERVING GOD! )

My child, MACSEN DANFORTH GEBHARDT, is now deceased and a resident of

Heaven.

Words CANNOT convey the emotion I felt when reading that. Small statement, with a whole lot of meaning and power to this mommy that misses her little man so! How is it that a small person that is no longer here, is able to give me strength and purpose to press on and see hope in all the dark?! Intercession on the lap of Jesus comes to mind.

Words are not adequate, but.....

Jesus.....oh how I love you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

HOLD US. OPEN OUR EYES TO YOU,

AND YOUR WILL FATHER. REVEAL TO US OUR REAL HOME. HOW WE CAN STRIVE TOWARDS IT IN ALL WE DO HERE. NOW.

BRING FORTH YOUR SPIRIT TO CHARGE THE HEARTS OF THE DADDY'S !!!! NO MATTER THE COST, SWEET JESUS! YOU ARE WORTHY....TO YOU BE THE GLORY KING JESUS!