My hearts desire is to be devoted to my King. To emanate so much, the love of Jesus, that literally those that I bump into will feel His contagious pull. My heart is so full, and yet so empty to know Him more. How appropriate it is that in the coming weeks my sisters and I will be discovering Him in new ways, through the eyes of Beth Moore, in Jesus the One and Only study. I guess what I mean is, I can honestly say that I am fully in love with Him, but hungry to know Him more then ever in my life! It seems odd to relay that, they seem to cancel each other out. But I truly feel that way inside. After all, His love is so immense, so everlasting that truly "knowing" Him, and "arriving" in the knowledge of Him is something that only our separation from this life, and into death will utterly fulfill! It sounds a bit suicidal, I know,which let me assure you, I most definitely am not! But to know Christ in His entirety, we will have to be with Him in paradise. And so ensues my full-on obsession of reading of Him, singing of Him, thinking of Him, and loving Him until that glorious day arrives. After all, I indeed have a purpose and a plan in this life that is well beyond me and my immediate "comfort". My purpose is to share Him with you.....you who are hurting, confused, unsure, sad, alone, and desperately starving for confidence in your eternal rest.
Your place in Heaven with your precious baby.
Your little girl that you crave each night as you go to sleep.
Your sweet boy that you dream of breathing his sweet breathe in your face. I know your pain. I know it, and I know, that were it not for Jesus Christ, and His most capable and loving arms around me and my most outrageous of heartaches......I would be in complete darkness. Alone, and completely without hope. Without hope in Heaven. But to quote from my favorite band, Mercy Me, a song that I so love....
"Hold fast, help is on the way!!!!!"
Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near. Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door! James5:7-9
3 years ago
2 comments:
I came across your blog from NILMDTS....
I am a contributor to it for a different story...
and I work with Neonatal Hospice families
You're faith is beautiful... as your love for your son.. I'm so sorry for your loss... I know those words sound so small in such a big pain...but I lift you up in prayer..
God Bless you
Connie
The Blog looks AWESOME Meg!!! I Love it! Big things to come my friend....BIG things!
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